Too much invested in a show

I just finished Showtime's Dexter.  I have never been so invested in a show. I love my shows,  especially The Walkin Dead but damn.
I about went nuts with the season 4 finalie and Nextflix not having seasons 5-8 till January 1st. I could not concentrate on my other favorite shows. Gaaaah. All I could think was poor Dexter. How is Dexter going to handle this? Is Harrison going to be born in blood?
I loved watching him discover he was human and can have feelings and love and a life. The finale was a bit disappointing. Especially to see Deb die. I had hopes for her. She was a good person. I cried when Dexter turned her machine off. He showed he is human and can love her and not be selfish. Although why did he dumb her in the ocean? That's where he puta bad guys. And why did he try to kill himself? He was doing good. Finally seeing he is human. Did Debra dying really make him feel so guilty to leave his son and the woman he loves?
I hope in my head he reunites with them. And soon.  Also... is it assumed Harrison died at sea with Dexter?

New Year New Beginnings

I am going to worknon posting here more often. I like the release of sharing my inner feelings and emotions.  Maybe I won't post as many fb statuses.
Well in this new year we are working on getting real insurance.  Not this bottom line obama care crap. They won't even cover hayden's last two doc appointments. They total almost 500. Nevermind it normally being 125/150 each appointment with the insurance. I just want to have hayden hearing on a regular basis. I hate that he only gets to for small time periods.
At least it has been good for a month now!
He is doing so much better with concentration since then clearing up. Inloce hearing him him try to read and recite books and songs! Wish he didn't have to go through his periods of not hearing. But that will happen when he is done growing and they can fix his nose and hopefully has no perminate damage. Although his left ear isn't responding very well. But between lip reading and his right ear he has this!
But anyways maybe soon we will have insurance
And can afford to get another set of tubes soon and go to doc visits regularly!  We do have a gofundme account set up and people are donating to help us with it all! Makes us feel blessed.