Hadley turned ONE!

so this is late. But my Princess turned one! I can not believe it. She had a perfect birthday party with friends and family! her them was lady bugs and she rocked it lol.
She is still currently nursing and co sleeping. We are working on weaning co sleeping, but i will let her wean breastfeeding. She is a walking talking toot. Her favorite word is "no" and "uh oh" and recently she has started saying "more" for please and "whoa whao whao" lol She is a climber, she clims EVERYTHING. Literally. I can not turn my back to her. Its hard to clean or pee without her climbing something. *hints why blog hasnt been updated lately*
Hayden is maturing so much. He has become my little man. He has calmed down alot. Not so hyper anymore. We have taken sugars and red food dye and such from his diet. seems to help. Playdates help alot too. He has found Jesus. Yes my 3 yr ol has found Jesus. He prays to him daily, multiple times and talks about Jesus and LOVES Jesus music. He is such an amazing kid. He is talking so much and is obsessed with monster trucks, Going to Start him a Youtube channel of him doing his monster truck thing. He knows everythign about them. HE saw them live in January!
I am currently learning who my true friends are. This is a lesson no one wants to learn the hard way but I have. Honestly family is all I trust and I can count my real friends on one hand. and I dont need the whole hand.
Thats our update for now. Oh we do have a DUCK! hahahaha <3

Worst day of my life

November 8 at approximately 7 pm my life changed forever. I heard my husband yell "Amiee come here!"I ran to the bedroom to find my daughter solid blue and my husband trying to do the Heimlich on her. I quickly took her and realized her lungs were full of water and she was stiff as a board. I turned around to lay her on the floor and felt the life of my disappear. During this my husband is yelling about how to call 911. I yelled at him "Honey she is not breathing, pick up the phone and dial 9-1-1! ". I immediately started chest compressions while praying to God to not take her from me. Finally after about 45 sec she started to cough and throw up water. At this point my son is confused and asking a million questions. I just gave her another breathe and did more compressions as i saw her slowly turn to a pale white. She throw up more water and pooped. She opened her eyes just a crack and I sat there on my knees starring at my sweet baby girl. That is when I started talking to the 911 operator and my neighbor Pam showed up. She sat next to me and helped with the Hayden and Brennen. It seemed like it took forever for the ambulance to arrive, but about 4 min after itstarted they walked into my doors. She had had been breathing on her own for about 2 min and was extremely 'out of it' I was just so gratful to see her breathing. And praying she had no perminate damage. At the hospital she continued to breath on her own and as doing great. They did a chest x-ray that revealed fluid in her lungs. Then she throw up again. They wanted to send us to Texas Children's downtown because they usually get worse before they get better and downtown has more equipment. I had not cried yet and I felt like the worst mother in  the world. I could not even look at her face because every time I did I saw her blue swollen face. I did hold her in between her aunt Sara, my momma, her daddy and her grampa. I just could not look at her face. I just played with her hand. Finally we were transferred to downtown. On the way there I was so afraid she would get worse in route. She did have major oxygen decrease and they had to give her oxygen but she over came that when she was woken up. She even spiked a fever. Which she had been doing every night for about 4 days. In the ICU room she did great. She went for another X-ray and kept saying "bye bye". This x-ray revealed NO water in her lungs. Thank GOD! The doctor that came in and talked to us. Told us they suspect a seizure based off of her recent history with fevers and the fact that she was so stiff when she was taken from the bath tub. They said that also explains the massive amounts of water for just a few secs under water. She was doing so well that around 330 am she was moved to the observation unit instead of ICU. She was sleeping so well. Mommy was not. Every time I closed my eyes I saw her face and started to relive the past evening in my head. Finally I feel asleep around 430. Which is when my sister called me with my son having a night terror. Broke my heart, but he was in great hands. Aunt Sara is awesome. The next day she did great. No fluid in her lungs, no fever, no brain damage, no breathing difficulties. She beat the statistics and only got better. She was her typical silly Hadley self. Showed no signs of how horrible her night was. I still felt like a horrible mother because I had not cried. But I did cry the second I walked into my bedroom. I needed to take a shower and cried the whole time being in the place where it all happened. I could not fall asleep in my bed. Finally I did, but from pure exhaustion. The next day I could not bring myself to walk in there unless I was busy. My heart races when I go in there. I hate it. I did not sleep in there the second night. I just could not do it. We shall see about tonight :/ My dad told me to not view this event as a bad event. It was a BLESSING. God /gave me the strength and held my hands as I did CPR on my baby girl. And he is right. I felt God with each and every compression. I have decided that I will become a CPR instructor and teach EVERYONE CPR. Also I am going to bring awareness to the fact that CPR saves. Iwant to make a law that says ALL PARENTS MUST BE CPR CERTIFIED IN ORDER TO TAKE A BABY HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL.Every second counts. With that I am going ot go hold my baby girl and she nurses! <3

ZOO BOO!!!

We took Hadley to the Houston Zoo for the first time! It just happened to be Zoo Boo! They both loved it!  And my mom aka Gigi went with us. Hayden was really into the cattle type animals. You know the ones most people just walk by? One licked him and we had to make him leave kicking and screaming because he thought it was so cool. :)
He made sure Hadley saw everything! They both got super excited to see the chimpanzees. The chimpanzee even posed for pictures with the kids. It was precious. I remember a few years ago the orangatang (sp) scared the crap out of Hayden when it ran at the window. I laughed so hard I almost peed myself then.
The African Forest was open and that was very neat. We had not been since it opened. It was fun for Hayden to find all the characters to The Lion King. He loved that. He was ecstatic to find the monkey with the red but. I forget his name. lol.
Hadley enjoyed the fish. She loves to stare at them. We tried to get Hayden to touch a snake but he was terrified . Hadley wanted to touch it but some people cut us off and she got distracted. We did learn that the albino alligator was born the same year as me. So he is 24 years old.
Since it was Zoo Boo the played awkward music for kids (like lady Gaga and Brittnay Spears) and Hayden got to go trick or treating and got a tattoo. They even had a pumpkin patch and Hayden got Hadley and himself a pumpkin, The boy is always thinking about his sister. <3 I just love that.  Our day ended with two very sleepy kids and a tired momma, daddy and Gigi. But it sure was a blast! As we left Hayden chased a giraffe lady on stilts just to give her a high five! haha

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2 toddlers got the best of me

So today I had my nephew, Noah, and Hayden and Hadley. Hadley and I are having sinus issues so we tried to chill on the couch all day. The boys proceeded to eat yogurt and cheese from the fridge. I noticed that one of them brought me the bologna too. Not wanting to complain I just put it up. Hadley kept crawling into Hayden's room and they kept locking her in there and would not let her out. One day this girl is going to kick their butts. Well anyways it got quite in Hayden's room so  I went to check on them. Well Hayden's room was destroyed and there was turkey bacon on the floor. I asked why it was on the floor and Noah picked it up and ran away! I got them to help me clean up. Then I asked Noah what he did with the turkey bacon went. He took me to the freezer, and nope nada. Took me to the bathroom, nope nada. Well I just happen to look under the bed and BAM there is bacon. Whatever I blow it all off and go lay back down with Hadley. I soon have to use the bathroom. I go do that. While in there I hear Hadley laughing and the boys talking. That's cool. NOT! I walk into the kitchen to see Hadley's head as orange as a pumpkin and paint all over the floor, oven and fridge. I immediately am ticked. and I hand them wipes and make them clean it up. I call my momma and I am telling her and I am soooooo freaking mad. I put them in the bath tub. I hang up with my mom. I look at them, Noah and Hayden are washing each others hair out and Hadley is laughing and has a huge grin on her face. I bust out laughing. Best laugh I have had in a while. It was hard to stay mad. I laid them down for a nap and they soon feel asleep. Crazy day with thees boys and Hadley. I love it! <3

Potty Training :/

Hayden has been in underwear since October 2010. He was 100 percent potty trained in January 2011. Maybe 1 to 2 accidents a week :) Since we had Hadley he has regressed and has his good days and his bad days. I feel so bad because Brian yells at him and gets so mad at him when he has accidents. He then becomes so upset and will have more accidents and try to hide them. It breaks my heart. I have potty trained so many kids I should write a book. yet I cant seem to help Hayden. Most of his accidents with me are poopy ones. His poop is still really loose so I am taking the rest of milk cheese and yogurt out of his diet to see if it helps. Maybe Brian will soon realize Hayden is only 3 yrs old. He is dry most morning now though :)

Brothers and Sisters

Why Does Hayden have to annoy the crap out of Hadley? He likes to give her toys then take them away. He  move toys away from her and laughs when she cries
 Yet he is protective of her and will give her anything she wants. He thinks all babies need at least one toy. He loves to cuddle with her and sing her songs and dance with her.
I was told that the bond between big brother and a little sister is just as strong if not stronger than a twin bond. I believe it and I see it everyday. Since Hadley's birth Hayden has known exactly who she was and wanted to care for her. He made sure the second she cried I gave her a paci. Now that she is off teh paci he say "momma sissy wants boobie. Now give sissy boobie." He is such a turkey.
Hadley's car-seat has become the perfect spot to hold Hayden and Hadley's toys when we leave. Poor girl will have like 10 cars in her car-seat with her along with her baby doll and a book or two.
When she first started crawling he build a barrier everywhere so she could go far and he could watch her.The other day she tried to crawl into the kitchen but he turned her around and said "eh eh Hadley." like you would a dog. poor baby girl. But I guess at least he is watching out for her. He really is an awesome BIG brother. I just hope he realizes that she will seek revenge one day :)

Reading to Hadley before bed <3

Hayden where is hadley? Under the bed momma!

sissy needs a barrier :)

BABY GIRL IS CRAWLING 8-6-11