Struggles with a 3 year old

Yesterday, I held my 3 year old daughter down as she was kicking and screaming and trying to run away from me. Why? Because she wanted to wear her faded, stained leggins to church. My husband laughs as he thinks it is a show for him. When in reality,  THIS IS MY REALITY. 
For instance, this morning we had a tantrum which included her climbing in the freezer and trying to shut herself in as she yelled at me for a corndog for breakfast.  Its my fault really. Last week when I was sick I caved and let her have a corndog for breakfast and well lunch. The problem is she  had already agreed to the pancakes I was making. And well corndogs just aren't breakfasr food. Are they?
Lesson learned. though, mommy can't get sick and have a moment of weakness. She will remember and she will  remind you a week later that is was in fact ok last week to eat the corndog. So this week is ok too.
Sometimes I feel like I am talking with a brick wall then BAM a month later she remembers what I told her about how she could wear her Anna dress once her room was cleaned. Nevermind the day she remembers this is also church day.
Atleast she was cute for church? The funny part was watching the husband try and to persuade her to take it off in the parking lot.
Starting to learn what is worth fighting with her. But I struggle with my inner sense of common sense and general rules of life. But then again who makes these rules and why can't we eat corndogs for breakfast or wear a Anna costume to church or those stained and faded leggings?

My day these days ♥

My day starts typically at 5 am when the husband annoyingly wake me up Just to wake me up. If I fall back asleep my day starts at 630 am.  That's when the first kid gets dropped off. Usually I make coffee and we sit on the couch and cuddle. Then 730 that's when my second lil one gets dropped off most days. Also the same time my kids wake up.I go through house and turn on scentsy then I aide with getting dressed and making beds and teeth brushing and making sure the dog gets let out and the animals get feed. Then at 8 that's time to take bug to school. I rearrange the carseats as needed then load them up. We leave about 810/815. Drop Hayden off then back hone by 830. That's diaper change and clothing change for all the littles. Then at 9 breakfast while watching Disney junior. I clean kitchen while they play on the floor. Opps gotta start laundry! If time before sleepy time we go outside!  At about 930/10 is first nap for littles. We pick up toys in livingroom and change diapers. Brenen gets here about 1030, the big kids have a snack and hang out either outside ot in back of the house. Time to Switch over laundry! Nap ends about 11. Diaper change! And then it is time for art! We paint, color, playdough and more! Then at about 12 it is clean up. Yay. I send the older kids to go clean the back of the house while I cook lunch. Then it is lunch about 1230. 1 is nap time. Then it is time to clean up the living room and I get everyone's spots ready while they eat.  When they are done eating it is again diaper change and bottled and sippy cups filled and everyone laid down. I vacuum real quick then clean the kitchen.  And sweap up the excess food and playdough. Nap last till about 3. During that time I fold the clothes and put up. Usually 2 loads. Then I make sure the kids rooms are cleaned and i lysol everything. Yes I do watch my show's while folding laundry. Aftwr nap it is diaper change and shoes on to load up the car to get hayden. 330 we go gwt hayden! Then home about 350. Then it is snack time.  After snack the big kids go outside with the door ope. While I  clean kitchen. About 4 the two babies get picked up. At this point we are all usually outside or headed that way. At 5 we are now going on a walk. It last about 30 min then at 530/540 I start dinner. I clean as I go. To avoid too much at the end. Hayden now sets the table for me. I unload the dish washer if need be. Dinner is done at about 6. We eat family style at the table. Hayden anf hadley take turns saying grace  Daddy usually comes home at about 615 and joins us. Dinner is done about 645. Mommy loads dishwasher and cleans pota and pans and wipes countera and tables. While the kids do their chores, including clean rooms vacuum, feed cats, ckean living room and  about 7/710 then I'm done with kitchen and it is time for baths.  They take a bath and brush 730 is tuck in beds! Jammies, potty, book and prayers! While every one is laying down including daddy I go behind thw kids and make surw house was cleaned. I wipe down toliets and sweep and clean litter box and turn off scentsy!  Then at about 9 when all is done I shower. Sometimes I'm lucky and I get to take a BATH at 8! Then it is time for bed.  I lay down and pass out at about 10/1030 and start my day again. Currently any chance i get to sit i am pumping breast milk gor a newborn baby ♥Love every min of it ♥

Dentist!

No cavities!
Hadley first visit!

Reasons my 3 yr old may be mad

She wants to dress herself
She wants help getting dressed
Her ballon ahe got 2 moths ago is MIA
Mickey mouse isn't on at 10pm
Her clothes match
Brother touched her
Brother won't hug her
She wants to buckle herself in the carseat
She doesn't want to buckle herself I  carseat
Daddy is kissing her
No one will play with her
They won't leave her room
She can't find queen Elsa dress
Target is NoT Disney world
Brother is at school
No one understands her
She is hungry, but can't say hungry
We don't live with GIGI
It is time to wake up
It is time for bed
No one is watching her dance
She isn't a boy
She wants to be held, but wants to walk
Bike is not allowed in house
She isnt 2 any more
Christmas is over
Church is only Sunday
Daddy went to work
Food has to cook
There are no more hor dogs
Her hair is angry
I didn't answer her fast enough
She doesn't have boobs
She can't go to kroger naked
Shoes on right feet
Shoes on wrong feet
She wants a tutu on

My bucket list

Visit NYC
Visit Europe
Travel with no luggage
Wine tasting in wine country
Take hadley and hayden to Disney

Work in progress

Too much invested in a show

I just finished Showtime's Dexter.  I have never been so invested in a show. I love my shows,  especially The Walkin Dead but damn.
I about went nuts with the season 4 finalie and Nextflix not having seasons 5-8 till January 1st. I could not concentrate on my other favorite shows. Gaaaah. All I could think was poor Dexter. How is Dexter going to handle this? Is Harrison going to be born in blood?
I loved watching him discover he was human and can have feelings and love and a life. The finale was a bit disappointing. Especially to see Deb die. I had hopes for her. She was a good person. I cried when Dexter turned her machine off. He showed he is human and can love her and not be selfish. Although why did he dumb her in the ocean? That's where he puta bad guys. And why did he try to kill himself? He was doing good. Finally seeing he is human. Did Debra dying really make him feel so guilty to leave his son and the woman he loves?
I hope in my head he reunites with them. And soon.  Also... is it assumed Harrison died at sea with Dexter?

New Year New Beginnings

I am going to worknon posting here more often. I like the release of sharing my inner feelings and emotions.  Maybe I won't post as many fb statuses.
Well in this new year we are working on getting real insurance.  Not this bottom line obama care crap. They won't even cover hayden's last two doc appointments. They total almost 500. Nevermind it normally being 125/150 each appointment with the insurance. I just want to have hayden hearing on a regular basis. I hate that he only gets to for small time periods.
At least it has been good for a month now!
He is doing so much better with concentration since then clearing up. Inloce hearing him him try to read and recite books and songs! Wish he didn't have to go through his periods of not hearing. But that will happen when he is done growing and they can fix his nose and hopefully has no perminate damage. Although his left ear isn't responding very well. But between lip reading and his right ear he has this!
But anyways maybe soon we will have insurance
And can afford to get another set of tubes soon and go to doc visits regularly!  We do have a gofundme account set up and people are donating to help us with it all! Makes us feel blessed.