Dentist!

No cavities!
Hadley first visit!

Reasons my 3 yr old may be mad

She wants to dress herself
She wants help getting dressed
Her ballon ahe got 2 moths ago is MIA
Mickey mouse isn't on at 10pm
Her clothes match
Brother touched her
Brother won't hug her
She wants to buckle herself in the carseat
She doesn't want to buckle herself I  carseat
Daddy is kissing her
No one will play with her
They won't leave her room
She can't find queen Elsa dress
Target is NoT Disney world
Brother is at school
No one understands her
She is hungry, but can't say hungry
We don't live with GIGI
It is time to wake up
It is time for bed
No one is watching her dance
She isn't a boy
She wants to be held, but wants to walk
Bike is not allowed in house
She isnt 2 any more
Christmas is over
Church is only Sunday
Daddy went to work
Food has to cook
There are no more hor dogs
Her hair is angry
I didn't answer her fast enough
She doesn't have boobs
She can't go to kroger naked
Shoes on right feet
Shoes on wrong feet
She wants a tutu on

My bucket list

Visit NYC
Visit Europe
Travel with no luggage
Wine tasting in wine country
Take hadley and hayden to Disney

Work in progress

Too much invested in a show

I just finished Showtime's Dexter.  I have never been so invested in a show. I love my shows,  especially The Walkin Dead but damn.
I about went nuts with the season 4 finalie and Nextflix not having seasons 5-8 till January 1st. I could not concentrate on my other favorite shows. Gaaaah. All I could think was poor Dexter. How is Dexter going to handle this? Is Harrison going to be born in blood?
I loved watching him discover he was human and can have feelings and love and a life. The finale was a bit disappointing. Especially to see Deb die. I had hopes for her. She was a good person. I cried when Dexter turned her machine off. He showed he is human and can love her and not be selfish. Although why did he dumb her in the ocean? That's where he puta bad guys. And why did he try to kill himself? He was doing good. Finally seeing he is human. Did Debra dying really make him feel so guilty to leave his son and the woman he loves?
I hope in my head he reunites with them. And soon.  Also... is it assumed Harrison died at sea with Dexter?

New Year New Beginnings

I am going to worknon posting here more often. I like the release of sharing my inner feelings and emotions.  Maybe I won't post as many fb statuses.
Well in this new year we are working on getting real insurance.  Not this bottom line obama care crap. They won't even cover hayden's last two doc appointments. They total almost 500. Nevermind it normally being 125/150 each appointment with the insurance. I just want to have hayden hearing on a regular basis. I hate that he only gets to for small time periods.
At least it has been good for a month now!
He is doing so much better with concentration since then clearing up. Inloce hearing him him try to read and recite books and songs! Wish he didn't have to go through his periods of not hearing. But that will happen when he is done growing and they can fix his nose and hopefully has no perminate damage. Although his left ear isn't responding very well. But between lip reading and his right ear he has this!
But anyways maybe soon we will have insurance
And can afford to get another set of tubes soon and go to doc visits regularly!  We do have a gofundme account set up and people are donating to help us with it all! Makes us feel blessed. 

Being a parent is hard. Decisions. Decisions.

As parents we make so many choices for our children. We stress and worry if what we said or do with hurt them in the future. The topics go from breastfeeding, cloth diapers, carseats, school, chores, spanking, timeouts, diets and so on. 
As a family the breasfeeding comes up a lot since Hadley is still breastfeeding and is over 2 yrs. For the record. We are self weaning. She will stop when she is ready.
But an even bigger issue has been our diet. Hayden has a milk protein issue so we use almond/ coconut milk. Then we learned how bad cows milk is and then it opened a new door for our lives. We soon stoped cokes and processed food. That was great for our family and even helped calm hayden down. Crazy right? No,  not crazy, research showed that was common. So then we decided no more gluten and well that has changed out lives more than  we could even imagine. Hayden has calmed so much. He is focused and more interested in following through with projects. Shoot he even colored in the lines at church instead of scribbling just to be done.
So happy this change has been such a blessing. And we are only 90% gluten free and no processed foods.
With this we have been able to sit down and reevaluate a lot about our parenting and lifestyle. We realized we have been yelling alot. Way more than we ever thought or wanted to. So we have have decided, no more yelling. None at all.  We are working on listening and explaining. We still do thinking spots. But yelling is no more.
The main reason this even came up was the other day Hayden spilt his milk and freaked out yelling " I'm so sorry mommy, im so sorry" i was speechless for a second then said " its ok baby let's just clean it up" I could not believe my son was afraid to spill milk. What kind of mom am I that my son was afraid to spill milk.  I never thought I yelled or got mad about things that can be fixed or corrected.  So now I am taking a breath and talking to myself before I respond to an incident. And others around my kids we are expecting the same. My kids will learn consequences for their actions. But that is cleaning up the mess or a thinking spot  and a talking to, not being yelled at. We yell no more. Needless to say our household has been calmer and more peaceful these days. Glad I was able to learn from my mistakes. Thats the best part about being a parent, you can correct your mistakes with parenting. What's the saying? Know better.  Do better. ♥

Splash Town june 2013

As a prize for finishing school and doing so well we took hayden to splash town. He wanted hadley to join. So we all went. Hadleyb woke me that morning about anbinch from my face band her yelling "splash town today"
Haydeb did all the rides he was tall enough for. While on space rapids he flipped out of his tube and he said "I'm big but that's for bigger kids" the loved leaky pipes and the pirate section. Both hated the wave pool when waves were going. Hayden tried to drown me. Hadley was scared of most slides but did do a few with mommy and daddy and one with hayden.  
The best part is we ran into brians brother, wife and the neices . The kids had a blast together. Best family day we has in a while. Kids love water just like their momma ♥